I THINK I CAN...

IT'S TIME FOR ME TO DO STUFF FOR ME NO MORE OF ASKING OR TRYING TO PLEASE MY HUSBAND. I WONT BE PUTTING MYSELF THUR THIS AGAIN. IT HAS BEEN CRAZY LIFE FOR ME SO FAR. BUT NOW I GO TO WALMART TOMORROW, IT WILL BE FRESH NEW START THAT I NEED. START SAVING UP MONEY AND START BUYING ME STUFF LIKE CLOTHES MAKEUP SHOES BOOK ETC TIME TO START PAPERING MYSELF MY MARRIAGE IS OK, IT HAS IT WEEKENDS WERE RONALD CANT STAND ME, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT  I THINK WHAT MARRIAGE DONT HAVE ITS UP AND DOWNS. RIGHT NOW I WOULD SAY WERE ARE IN A DOWN PERIOD. BUT I FIGURE HEY I LOSE WEIGHT HAVE SOME MONEY . THEN HE WILL FINALLY SAY DAMN BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. GRR I GET SO MAD WHEN I SEE THESE COUPLES HOLDING HANDS OR HAPPY AND I WOUNDER DOES RONALD SEE THAT DOESNT HE KNOW I WANT THAT TO. DONT HE KNOW I NEED TO HEAR BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I TELL YOU SOMEONE TOLD ONCE YOU GET MARRIED EVERYTHING GOES DOWN THE DRAIN... WELL GUESS WHAT IT HAS, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL BE OK, I HAVE FRIENDS WHO WILL TELL ME I AM BEAUTIFUL OR TELL ME HEY YOU SHOULD DO THIS. THAT IS FINE. I DONT WANT PEOPLE HATING ON RONALD OR PIST OFF, THAT IS WHO HE IS AND I CANT CHANGE HIM. BUT I AM SUPER GLAD I GOT A JOB AND NOW ITS MY TIME FOR ME!!!!