NEW

So today was a good day again with my mom , i tell ya my life is good so far :) i got a great new job and so today mom wanted to spend the day and have fun. thanks again mom for today. i love you!

My new Purse & matching wallet and my new name tag from walmart "mom and i got same purse but her's is green :)"

My Marilyn Monroe Necklace that will hold my walmart bage  

& my new shoes :)

I love everything we do , i cant wait to get a day off after a first pay check and treat mom to  a good time :) she has done so much me i will think of a way to do something for her. ooh i start walmart monday YAY!!!! have a good weekend everyone




PS. ENJOY MY NEW LAYOUT :) i hope you like it tell me what you think

I THINK I CAN...

IT'S TIME FOR ME TO DO STUFF FOR ME NO MORE OF ASKING OR TRYING TO PLEASE MY HUSBAND. I WONT BE PUTTING MYSELF THUR THIS AGAIN. IT HAS BEEN CRAZY LIFE FOR ME SO FAR. BUT NOW I GO TO WALMART TOMORROW, IT WILL BE FRESH NEW START THAT I NEED. START SAVING UP MONEY AND START BUYING ME STUFF LIKE CLOTHES MAKEUP SHOES BOOK ETC TIME TO START PAPERING MYSELF MY MARRIAGE IS OK, IT HAS IT WEEKENDS WERE RONALD CANT STAND ME, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT  I THINK WHAT MARRIAGE DONT HAVE ITS UP AND DOWNS. RIGHT NOW I WOULD SAY WERE ARE IN A DOWN PERIOD. BUT I FIGURE HEY I LOSE WEIGHT HAVE SOME MONEY . THEN HE WILL FINALLY SAY DAMN BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. GRR I GET SO MAD WHEN I SEE THESE COUPLES HOLDING HANDS OR HAPPY AND I WOUNDER DOES RONALD SEE THAT DOESNT HE KNOW I WANT THAT TO. DONT HE KNOW I NEED TO HEAR BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I TELL YOU SOMEONE TOLD ONCE YOU GET MARRIED EVERYTHING GOES DOWN THE DRAIN... WELL GUESS WHAT IT HAS, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL BE OK, I HAVE FRIENDS WHO WILL TELL ME I AM BEAUTIFUL OR TELL ME HEY YOU SHOULD DO THIS. THAT IS FINE. I DONT WANT PEOPLE HATING ON RONALD OR PIST OFF, THAT IS WHO HE IS AND I CANT CHANGE HIM. BUT I AM SUPER GLAD I GOT A JOB AND NOW ITS MY TIME FOR ME!!!!

IT'S GETTING CLOSE

i just got the phone call Orientation and i cant wait its Thursday at 8:30 am till 4 or 5 :) i cant wait

this is will be the fresh start that i know my hubby and i need. keep your prayer open wide for me.

HAPPY Father's Day!!!

HEY EVERYONE I JUST WANTED TO WISH ALL THE DADS OUT THERE A HAPPY FATHERS DAY. THIS FATHERS DAY I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO CELEBRATE FOR ONE DUMB SAD REASON I DON'T HAVE MY DAD, ITS HARD FOR ME I TOOK IT OUT OF MY MIND JUNE 19 I AM HEARTBROKEN AND SAD I HIDE IT FROM EVERYONE MY LIFE HAS BEEN TURNED UP SIDE DOWN AND IT WONT BE THE SAME. I DON'T MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE OR SOMEONE TO CALL WHEN MOM IS BUSY OR I AM HAVING A BAD DAY I DON'T HAVE THE EXCITEMENT WHEN THE PHONE RINGS AND HE ASK RONALD TO O SOMETHING FOR HIM, I DON'T HAVE SOMEONE TELLING ME STORY'S OR JUST HIS SMELL OR HIS LAUGH OR HIS HUG. I DON'T GET NONE OF THOSE BACK AND THAT IS SO HARD. I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING EVERYTHING AROUND AND NOTHING IS RIGHT ANYMORE. I JUST WISH HE WOULD GIVE ME A SIGN OR I CAN JUST HAVE A HUG. OR JUST HEAR FROM MY HUSBAND BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL TODAY I LOVE YOU. JUST THE LITTLE STUFF GET TO ME NOW. I CANT HELP IT. BUT TOMORROW I AM GOING TO MY MOMS AND WE ARE GOING TO GO SWIMMING AND JUST HAVE FUN. SO EVERYONE THAT READS THIS PLEASE HUG YOUR DADS LOVE THEM CHERISH THE MOMENTS YOU HAVE WITH THEM YOU WONT KNOW WHEN THERE TIME IS UP.

HERE ARE SOME PHOTOS I HAD ON MY COMPUTER OF MY DAD ENJOY!! WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU DADDY

Loser :(

i am having one of those days. i feel like crap and i feel like the worst wife in the world.i have a job that i like that is to easy for me. but all the do is take money from you, and i dont want to work for people like . and now i am on the search for a new job and this family video store is hiring and i put in a application fast.so hopefully they will call me i could really use a job. so please keep big prayers out for me. & on top of everything ronald could go on strike and that isnt good for me and him at all. so i want the best for him i want him happy and feel safe for us but i dont think he ever will i just have a feeling that he will always have bad thought.s in his head.

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